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As colors run together into brown
and fall and die
the leaves crack cold
beneath my condensated breath.
Dew runs together into leaves
and then they freeze
as frosted slivers
hanging just below my window ledge.
I wrap a scarf around my neck
and burst into
the clear crisp air
that isn't cold enough for winter yet.
A stinging comes into my nose as
I stand along
the sidewalk
watching and waiting for autumn's end.
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Wednesday, August 31, 2005
back from teacher's dae celebration~celebration where i din get 2 c the teacher i want to c xia
i reached skoL arnd 12.45pm xia
my class ppL nv wait 4 mi to take class f0t0~haiz...hahaz
den sa alot of ppl
reallie miss my class
my classmates
my SEAT~
remembering the strong orange smell~loL
remembering the times when we sat in the hall n listen to the discipline master's l0ng nagging
remembering the times when we sang nati0nal anthem 3 times in a r0w...
remembering the times when we plae rubber in class
remembering the daes when we shared food in class~party time!!
remembering the times when we struggle to complete our compo on the hot afternoon
remembering the times when we plae captain's baLL
remembering the daes when we bless each other gd Luck last miN before exams
remembering the daes in CCa...camPs,l0gistics room,driLL....
remembering the times tt we used to have
fun~laughter~tears~sweat~everything!
though some maybe overseas now~but we know tt our relationship will neva end
2 yrs
730 days
17520hrs
1051200mins
63072000 secs
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:from der untiL now~
end of my speech~loL
den went out with huiqi Chernfern eunice martin n wallace
eunice wanted to take neoprints
but in the end we never took any
cuz she had 2 rush home
den left huiqi n chernfern n me
we t0k alot...
about our skol...when we going meet again..bla
went hm arnd 630pm
tired ~but enjoyable
but~nt long...my mood turn haywire
jus felt tt everytink's nt right
the atmosphere~i felt depressed
disappointed over somethings
went toilet pray on bended knees
sniff~felt better~holy spirit encouraging me
teaching me how to love others even though dey may hurt me so deep
teaching me to say the right things at the right time
in the past ...i may sae things tt hurt ppl...but all the things said was truly from the bottom of my heart for a gd reason...jus to say something to motivate to encourage but it turn out to be scarastic...
sometimes its hard for me to bring across my feelings thru words
i duno y
maybe tt's y i fear prayer meeting soo much
but i'm going to change for the better!!
to be sensitive at the right place on the right time
to me...ytd's prayer meeting was fantastic
fellt tt God is telling me nt to be afraid of prayer meetings
n to sae wad i want to say from the botton of my heart
even its put across simply
as l0ng as i have the heart and faith to pray
nt jus for the sake of praying
but for the anointing of the Holy Spirit to come...for kingdom of God~yeah!
more test coming up~4tests nxt week----all in a row...wah...sianz
/gone~
Triumph for your dreams 7:44 AM ;
Friday, August 26, 2005
cg iSh gre8!!
hahahz..and the refreshments 2!!
thx Irene's mum, Irene,J0sephine deY aLL f0r such a gre8 work!!
but din left a bowl for Irene's mum
i'm stupid ritez...din tink of tt
2 time le
1st ish nv leave for JingTing's mum
now ish Irene's mum
An0ther lesson 2 learn
dUring cg...
i c0uld feeL the tangibLe presence of God
i could feeL Him liFting uP my worries n troubles
i could feeL Him asking mi 2 give up on the thing tt i've been holding on
i'm struggling...i'm learning to give it up...lift it up to Him
i'm trying...
i noe i CAN DO IT de
muS haf faith!! yupp
perhaps i'm too sensitive on the wrong side...
i duno
sometimes-i feel numb in my heart
when i read my mei's blog... ...
i was shocked
i have 2 do something
me being a elder sister din do anitink single thing 2 help
its nt tt i cant help
its i dun have the courage to help
now i felt how serious ish tis situation
i mus now put down my everything--ve thinking
put on God's armour
Holy spirit....without U i can do nutting
Guide me...lead me...how can i bless the ppL arnd me
Its Your power tt creates miracles...Its Your supernatural power tt melts ppL's heart
It melts my stone heart once
I believe tt it will melt their hearts
I put my trust in You..n give u aLL of my praise
Triumph for your dreams 7:25 PM ;
Tuesday, August 23, 2005
din update for 4 daes
projects-reports-tests-lectures-tutorials
driving mii crazyy
hahaz the IDEAs presentation was over but we have 2 edit our proposals and slides
went hm...beri tired
still have test- engineering maths the nxt dae
bt i slept
from 8pm
woke up check mailz brush teeth
den went back dreamland
eyelids droping
no strength to do anything
din revise anithing
for the 4 whole daes
its jus projects-reports
non-stop
dun tink it will stop
reports-4 more 2 go
projects-2 more 2 go
wahahaha
i mus learn nt 2 complain
read jingting's blog ytd
she's having a really bad mood
nt jus her...everybody arnd me is nt feeling gd either
and tt includes me
have both tests over...more 2 come
going to flunk one
i'm sick of tests
todae going cell-grp
have a feeling its going be wonderfuL
and Hallelujah...no nid to wake up early for cg
tt means i have a whole dae 2 complete most of my hmwks-reports...
EVERYTHING
THANK YOU GOD-U MEAN EVERYTHING TO ME
i noe u arrange tis for a purpose
now tt i know
jus want 2 say: THANK YOU =]
Triumph for your dreams 11:00 PM ;
Sunday, August 21, 2005
Sat= blur and careless day
trip over the stairs
fell down
one shoe came off
thought i was going to get hurt
but felt a force lifting me gently to the floor
so lau kuei_ behind me is a cg leader...
den nt long
summore step on my toes
painz
~CONTROL~
i din flare any temper...gd ritez? i was nt angry...bt abit lost...at tt time i was asking: Where are You? Why did U let this thing happen 2 me....typical me
bt still want 2 thx God tt i din cut myself (jus bruises)...i noe He's still der protecting me...it's jus tt i din realised it
wait 4 lift like waiting for eternity
came up to lvl 1 den fuLL
have 2 wait 4 nxt round
waited for 4 rounds still the same
g0 toliet
too fuLL
have 2 wait
den go down b4...i'm late
but the srv was reallie wonderfuL
~HE's deliberately mysterious!!
~HE's wild and frighten me at times
~HE's in controL of everything
~HE treats me when i dun deserve it
making green bean soup on sun
duno how 2 make
this is what happened on sun:
went willie hse make green bean soup with jiamin meiru
in the end the soup chao tta
den quickly go buy drinks
bro Derrick din reallie scold me
but can feel that he's nt beri happy
like disappointed~
i felt beri lousy xia
actually at tt time i heard a voice telling me tt i shouldn't put the sago inside the pot with the green beans
but i actually ignore the voice and let jiamin meiru pour dem inside
haiz...nvm bah...treat it as a lesson
nxt time i must be carefuL of wad i do
shouldn't let my human instinct lead my way
should let holy spirit do the job
den now doing hmwk
but jus dun feel like doing
sianz...with test and report nid 2 hand up...
dun tink i have time 2 complete
tis few dae jus cant seems 2 concentrate and engage
jus have cravings for food
m0n blues ~ olready came
mon havent even started
tmr having presentation
God pls watch over our hexters grp
guide us Oh Lord, teach us how 2 present and promote our proposal
lead us not to be anxious
but have the courage and confident like Yours
thank U Father...Amen =]
~making steamed corn nxt cg...so excited
Triumph for your dreams 3:40 AM ;
Friday, August 19, 2005
hmm din wite anything ytd
too tired
watched project superstar halfway dozed off
woke up at 10pm ++
check mailz and chat 4 a while den l0g off
pray den dozed off again
* haiya ...the results for project out le
Kelly n Kelvin emerge
their price reallie paid off
who will be the final one left?
who will finally energe as the project superstar?
continue 2 watch project superstar lorh n u will noe*
todae RWP test
as usual i anihow do the test
dun have mood 2 do bah
dun reallie have 2 gd mood these few daes
but olways tell myself to be happy
den mood became better as the time goes by
have a great time with dem...doing IDEAS project
sianz...for the past fews daes ...
we worked on the project
but until now we still done a bit
hahaz
noe why?
cuz 80% of the time we are eating and plaeing
luffing and slacking
hehe
summore the due is on mon
stress xia...with alot of reports and tests to complete...
will i be able 2 finish it?
hmm...mus have faith...with God all things are possible de
praying for an uncomplaining heart
going 5th mei's grandparents hse do project
pray tt we can finish it on time
haiz...cannot go children church liaoz
sad sad
long time nv c my cutie meisi le
hmm have 2 ta-han until nxt week den can c
mus focus on project jus for now
sumtimes i felt tt if God can give me one dae...jus one dae off from life and jus come 2 worship Him
issn't it great?
hahaz...i'm tinking too much le
Triumph for your dreams 7:17 AM ;
Wednesday, August 17, 2005
t0dae i make jt angry n hurt
i duno wad happen 2 mii
anihow fa pi qi
actually i long time nv fa pi qi le
todae fa le beri shuang
but als0 beri hUrt
i din mean it de
but also duno y i said tt
t0 jingting-from my deepest heart Sorry~i din mean 2 hurt u
hmm
maybe i do nt deserve 2 have such a fren
i'm olready a failure being a fren
i'm too bad le
i dun noe how 2 tresure frenship
i olways take things 4 granted
tink u all hate me now
haiz
still gt alot of project 2 finish
i can do all things thru Christ who strengthens me~
i'm trying 2 change -----i nid time
i will try -i must try
to force myself to try
i'm here 2 trample santan
Triumph for your dreams 7:36 AM ;
Sunday, August 14, 2005
hiya~ my 1st p0st
ytD at childreN church....felt tt i din g0 for a long time
felt i din go chc for a long time 2
quite miss church
ahaz
have a great time at children church ytd
the kids der are s0 innocent and simple-minded
i dun noe how 2 describe
der's just something which the kids have but we dun have
n0 wonder God so bless dem
=P
no wonder i'm attracted to children church
felt God's presence mighty ytd...
worship....it's more den a song
felt it at cg and at chinese srv
thinking of wad i can d0 for God
thinking of the dream i had b4
hahaz
tired...gonna slp
Triumph for your dreams 7:54 AM ;